if heaven had a phone line..

if heaven had a phone line,
i would certainly use it everyday
i would start my mornings by saying
"hi, what's for breakfast?"
as i start preparing the plates

but knowing the sleepyhead that i am
you'd probably end up calling me
and waking me up instead

if heaven had a phone line
i'd call you every now and then
just like the way we used to text way back when
it's just a random check on both of us
it's kinda like our thing, a bonding moment,
a happy fuss

if heaven had a phone line
i'd never miss the days when you're not here
in our current situation,
just talking to you, hearing your voice would be more than enough
cause i know you're there.

if heaven had a phone line
i'd tell you i love you and thank you everyday
you made sure i was raised right
you gave me a family
you did everything with all your might.

even to your last breath,
you thought of me,
making sure i can handle it,
making sure i'll be alright.

if heaven had a phone line
then i could ask you if you're proud of me
of where i am now,
of what i've become,
the fruits of your labor,
and as your living legacy.

if heaven had a phone line..
..i'll make your proud of me.
more than that,
how i wish you're still here with me.

-..♥..-

MOTHER [noun]

..someone who will love you unconditionally,
til her last breath..

-..♥..-

Loss not Found

i thought today will just be an ordinary day
wake up, get up, dress up
daily routine, tasks
just the usual

until i saw you, walking right across me
i did a double take, my heart skipped a beat
is it you? is it really you?
why are you here? what are you doing here?

Hope flooded my heart
All logical reasoning escaping my sanity
fear of disapppointment flooding my soul
but still, maybe you are here
benefit of the doubt
i gave it my all

i did a double take to see things clearly
my heart sank as i was taken back to reality
it wasn't you - it just looked like you
i stood there frozen, emptiness, pain, hurt washed over me
i was just overwhelmed, dazed, i don't know what to do

In this lifetime,
You're never coming back to me
No matter what i do.
It just sucks cause i can't kill this hope.
Hope of me, being with you.

-..♥..-

... Maybe not in this lifetime, but in the next
we'll see each other again
and I can be with you.
Just like you promised ...

-..♥..-