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Heeey..!

Happy Happy Happy Birthday!
You're a year OLDER now,
have i said that you're old now??

Yeah, im happy for yoy
Kinda excited actually,
it's your first birthday that we're together,
not physically, but still together.
(and many more to come!)

Anyways, today's about you.
So here you go :)

You were just some guy that i met like three years ago. Tall, dark, popular with the girls, smart, kinda snotty to be honest, funny guy, the works.

We've talked a couple of times but not really,
We just started really talking like about less than a year ago.
And things are getting more interesting,
the more that i got to know you.
There is more to you than what meets the eye

You showed me who you were/are
You said you were kinda "bad" in some ways,
In some stuff, in your past
And maybe you are,
I just dont see that.

I see a very fun-loving, determined person with a compassionate heart.
I see someone who loves chorizos for breakfast, loves sweets, can eat almost anything, heavy sleeper.

a guy who has like a girl's period for like EVERYDAY, loves music, athletic, GYM ADDICT, gamer, loves to SWIM, competitive, a go-getter. Religious (so-so).

A person capable of change, has a positive attitude, has strong willpower, can take a stand but can back off when needed, patient, understanding, protective and will do anything for the sake of the people that matter most to him.

Tbh, you're more than what you're giving yourself credit for.

I believe that you had made a good impact on someone elses lives, especially on mine.

You helped me up remember?
When no one could love me,
When i was broken,
When i couldnt even love myself
You became ny BESTFRIEND,
and now my PARTNER.
You were there. You are here.
Just here and there.
And you, sticking up beside me,
that means a lot.

and your past? all the things you said you were not really proud of?
It molded you for who you are now:
A person who loves purely and wholly,  and gives everything - all time and and effort - without expecting something in return.

So do me a favor please?
Thank your mom for me
She did a fine job raising you.

And all those years that you had,
All those experiences,
Im thankful for those
Because those prepared you for me
It made you stronger, wiser.
It lead to you to me

And i promise, i'll stand by you no matter what
I'm keeping you

So celebrate life!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY..!

and one last thing - you're worth it.
You deserved to be loved.
I love you ^^v

PRESENCE ♥

heeeeeeey..

just passing by, quick question: aren't you tired?
you've been running in my head all day! lol. (#boom #whogoat #corny)

really, i heard this song and thought of you.
i was supposed to write a blog but then my thoughts got jumbled up
so i decided to message you instead:

i guess it wouldn't and couldn't be helped
my past would always come back to haunt me,
no matter how hard i try to run away from it.

yup, as much as possible, i just want to forget about it.
the pain, the reality that at that time, i was alone.
i had no choice. I have to stand up for myself.

i also hated the future.
Every waking day, i thought i had no more reason to live.
(kinda harsh, but you do know that at that time, i lost everything. - well at least i thought i had)

I wasn't looking forward to tomorrow but then again i just wanna forget my past. Pretty complex right?

However the world doesn't stop turning. it continues to live
It seems as if nothing has changed, but you look back and realize, nothing's the same.
Except for some little bits of reality, especially about you.

you became my friend.
you were there when i was with him
you were there when my mom moved on
you were there when he left me
you were there when i ran after him
and in my crazy moments,
those nights when i'd call you in the middle of the night to cry,
and probably more nights to come, you are always there for me
always listening to the same problems.
and still, even in now, you are here with me

"don't say you have time. if you give someone your effort, you're giving them your time"
- i learned that from you
you'd call me in the middle of the night.
you'd spend your time talking to me instead of playing your favorite game
you'd email me if something happens.
by far, you had never left me hanging.
through all your actions, i can clearly see you're giving me your TIME and EFFORT

now thinking about it, i don't feel so lonely anymore,
nor i have fear of facing what's to come.

you're there.
i have someone.
your determination, perseverance and hard-hardheadedness (lol) must've rubbed off on me
you taught me not to give up
you taught me to fight.
and the funniest thing was,
you LOVED me, even when i couldn't even love myself.

so thank you. i owe a lot of my recovery from you.
you had me at my worst, i am sure to give you my best
and i'm better now. i'm not the weak person i once was.
thank you for making me whole gain.
for putting back all the pieces :)

and likewise, i promise to be there for you
like what you did for me.
iLy ♥

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... sorry for the long post,
im just happy, and i wanna keep this feeling
this feeling that i thought i'd never feel again ...

...♥ will you follow through if i fall for you? ♥ ...
- martin garrix feat. usher - don't look down - 

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