haunted past

everytime it crosses my mind,
i still feel that aching sensation
a feeling of emptiness, longingness
a hole inside your heart

days, months, maybe even years will pass by
but probably it will never heal,
or if it would, it will bear a scar
to remind me of my past
to remind me of what i went through
to make me realize that i could never
go back to the person i once was

whatever it is, all i know is that:
i never want to experience it again.

please dont leave me, fate dont play with me
please heal me, make me forget the pain
please stay, don't ever go away,
i know i'll break again,
if you do leave me
im just saying ill go insane.